I want things done when I want them done. Which sometimes means I want
them done yesterday. Which sometimes means I tell a child multiple times
to take a shower or read a book, or sometimes means I toss and turn
over all the things undone.
The funny thing is, often when I take a step back, I see that things do
get done, just in their own time. Tooth brushing may not happen when I
demand it, but it happens before bed. Reading may not happen on my
schedule, but it happens before the deadline, or before the library due
date, or in some other way, on time. Likewise, in my own life, change
sometimes happens not when I am pushing for it, but when my back is
turned for a second.
We want to be in control. We want to know that we can make things how we
want them, that we can be the masters of our time, of our careers, and of our
households. And while sometimes it takes jumping in and effecting
change, sometimes it just takes being patient enough to let change
happen on its own, and trusting that what we want or need will happen in
time--before the due date, before the deadline, before our tipping
point.
I will probably still want things when I want them, which will still
often be yesterday. But I'd like to think that once in a while, I will
step back and just let things fall as they may. Who knows? I might be
pleasantly surprised with how it all turns out--maybe not yesterday, but in plenty of time.
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