I arrived home to a large box containing an Emmy, my Emmy, won as part
of the directing team at the online version of One Life to Live. The
work for which we won feels like a lifetime ago, and maybe it just about
was. The Emmy may have been awarded in 2014, but, Emmys working how
they do, it was for 2013 shows. The Emmy may have been awarded six
months ago, but ordering and mailing being what they are, the statue is
like a holiday gift. And in a lot of ways, the life I am living now,
almost two years later, really is another lifetime.
Two years ago, I was going into Christmas/New Year's week unemployed and
discouraged, only to receive a tentative call about the soaps just
after Christmas. Today, I am working, fairly regularly.
Two years ago, I accepted the job at the soaps and spent five months
commuting to a different state each day, often returning to fall into
bed long after my family was asleep. Today, I walk to and from work,
and share dinner (not 6pm dinner, but still, dinner), with my husband and children.
Two years ago, I was celebrating the rebirth of what had once been. Today, I am discovering daily what might be.
Two years ago, I couldn't have imagined working in news or being an editor every day. Today, I am doing both.
Two years ago, I was on the "help me" end of having coffee with friends. Today, I can try to be of help.
My new Emmy will join the ones I won while at ABC--an exciting, yet
somewhat mind-boggling addition. Who would have thought that what lasted
such a short time could yield such a large reminder of that other
lifetime?
These days, I suppose that many of us live through what feel like
multiple lifetimes. Whether because of job change or other
circumstances, we are constantly called upon to reinvent what we call
our lives, and most of the time, we do it, stepping bravely (or not so
bravely) into our next lifetime. Do I miss the lifetime that led to the
big Emmy box? Sometimes. But right now, I'm too busy managing my new
lifetime to think too much about it.
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