Perhaps I will accept less pay or late pay or no pay, if only I can spend my hours working instead of looking for work.
Maybe I will accept computer games and video viewing and staring
aimlessly at the ceiling and less than tidy rooms, if only I can know that my kids are safe and
healthy and happy.
Perhaps I will accept rejection of and ignoring of and general lack of
response to resumes and letters and reels I send out into the world, if
only I can be reminded once in a while of some of the pretty good things I've
done and all of the pretty good things I can still do.
Maybe I will accept piles of laundry to do and dinner to make and organizing to attempt, if only someone will notice.
Perhaps I will make the requisite phone calls and sort through the piles
of paperwork if, at least sometimes, I get worthwhile results.
Life is often a series of bargains--ongoing decisions about what is or
isn't worth it to us. Sometimes, even the simplest things become choices
to be made. And sometimes, what starts out looking not so great turns
out to be the best bargain of all. So be careful what you say you won't
do. Sometimes a little bargaining leads you to the most interesting
choices you've ever made.