In what has become a rare occurrence since my soap days, I am doing a few-day Associate Directing gig. It's not that I don't want them. They are just few and far between these days. And if there is one thing (well, actually, there are lots of things) that I have learned over a few years in the freelance world, it is that "Avid Editor" opens a lot more doors than "Associate Director." So I have become largely an editor, branching out across editing platforms and across formats, spending hours in small rooms communing with a computer.
Yet, every so often, an AD job pops up, and more important, pops up for
me. And it's hard to resist the collaboration with a director. It's hard
to resist the challenge of coordinating cameras and making an organized
plan out of an artistic vision. It's hard to pass up the opportunity to
sit in a different kind of small, dark room. Once upon a time, I moved
daily between AD and Editor, a setup that ensured I never tired of
either. And while the AD gig at hand will be only a blip in my "now"
life, it is a lovely reminder of what was and what can be, of the fact
that we never really have to settle for how people see us, as long as we
are able to keep looking and to see ourselves in other ways. As I did
in my soap days, I will likely go back to the edit room with new eyes
and new enthusiasm. And that is, perhaps, one of the best things about
stepping out once in a while. We are never exactly the same when we go