As I headed out to pick up one of my kids from school, not rushing, not
dashing from something else, not squeezing in the pickup between other
commitments, I felt a lovely calm. I could walk, not run. I could enjoy,
not worry. I could arrive with a look of joy on my face, not with a
look of stress.
I have spent the majority of my parental life either having others
retrieve my kids or scrambling to fit my own retrieving into an overbusy
life. I have raced the clock, banked on on-time trains, and made frantic
"I'm running late" phone calls. I have sweated and apologized and felt
not good enough. So today, as I walked calmly and arrived on time, I felt an incredible peace.
Today, as I walked home sharing a snack and hearing about the ups and
downs of a school day, it didn't matter what all those other days had
been. Today, as I was neither sweating nor worrying, it didn't matter
what tomorrow would be.
Sometimes, the very best thing you can do is just feel today.
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